Tuesday, May 25, 2010

The Unexpected

A few weeks ago my mother in law, who is fighting lymphoma, needed to be hospitalized for an extended period. It was an unexpected turn of events and changed our lives for awhile. There was not much time for the gym, computers, detailed meal planning, blogging... Our focus was on her, but for now, life has pretty much returned to its regular routine.

It is hard to spend many hours in the hospital without eating poorly. The highlight of the day is going to the cafeteria for dinner. (and boy did they ever have some yummy choices) BUT! Thank goodness that they also had a fantastic salad bar! I was not perfect. I did not always make smart choices. I was however aware of what I was putting on my plate. Looking back in my food journal I hit 2500 calories on two days. ouch, but the rest of the time I stayed under 1600 so I am happy with that!

I have sure missed the gym! I am looking forward to my zumba class tomorrow. My weeks were not completely void of exercise though. I walked alot to pass the time.

Even so, I gained. Not a whole lot, but still!

What did I learn in the last few weeks? I learned that it is important to take the time to take care of ourselves. No matter what is going on in life, we can still make healthy choices, like taking the stairs instead of the elevator and choosing baked instead of fried. Simple choices that make a big difference.

Glad to be back!!!! :)

Thursday, May 6, 2010

I Have Not Missed This Feeling!

Today started out great. I had my cereal with berries, coffee with creamer, wrote it down.

Doing well.

Went to Costco and passed by buying the chocolate dipped shortbread cookies that my girls were begging for. Also passed on all of the samples.

YAY. Felt proud of that!

Went through the Starbuck's drive thru and ordered a skinny latte when I really wanted to get a white chocolate mocha.

Still O.K

Barista was giving samples of the new mini cookies so we bought three. I gave them to the girls, they did not like them. I DID! and I ate all THREE.

O.K. not the end of the world. Forget about it and drive on.

Got home. groceries put away. lunch for the girls finished. Time to make my lunch. I had grilled chicken for my lunches this week and had fresh spinach that I had just bought to make a yummy salad.

Open the fridge.

Spy the leftover mexicano pizza from hubbys dinner last night.

Plated it. Microwaved it. Ate all five pieces :(

Sitting here trying to figure out what happened and feeling full, tired and heavy. Yuk. I haven't felt like this for a long time.

Through years and years of diet after diet, I waited for something inside of me to "click". You know when you just get that unstoppable strength and drive that you know is going to carry you to your goal. Well, click it finally did and ever since, I have been worried about losing that drive...that one day I will wake up and I will quit.

This is NOT that day!! I am not going to let it be.

pic from google

Bob and I are doing day 4 of the C25K tonight and even though I am going to be dragging from all of the calories that I burdened my body with, I am going to suck it up and go anyway.

I think I have beat myself up enough now. Time to slide off this couch and go outside to plant the beautiful lavendar that I just brought home! :)

Hope your day is treating you well!

Monday, May 3, 2010

Sometimes I forget that I am still overweight

Since I have been going to the gym, outside walking, eating well...I have been feeling so healthy and athletic that my weight has not been the first thing that I think about(which is usually the way it was with me).

This weekend we went to my Aunt's house and there are these chairs on her deck that I always avoid (they are tiny and evil). Well, I get my plate of salad, my one hot dog without a bun, balancing my iced tea and just grab a chair without even thinking. Yep, you guessed it...I sat right in the evil chair and pretty much felt stuck there since my thighs were straining out of the sides. ugh. It didn't make me feel THAT bad, but it did make me realize that this road I'm on is just beginning and that I am in it for the long haul. For reasons like being able to fit nicely into that tiny chair.


My husband was busy with helping family on Sat and Sun so we didn't get to do our C25K this weekend, but are going to the track tonight when he gets home. I decided to take the monster dog out for a long walk. HA! :) Not a good idea...every bird, cat, dog, car, you name it...he barked and strained towards it. It was a very SLOW walk. I didn't even sweat! I need to either teach him to chill out or leave him home :)

We just had a new fruit/veggie stand open up a mile down the road. I love it! Probably not a new thing to some, but look what I found!

Tiny little avocados! I put a big one by them so you can see the difference. I have never seen anything like them and am excited because it will help me with my portion control. When I cut into a medium one I end up throwing alot of it away because I usually only need 1/2 and I have not figured out how to store them so they won't turn brown.

I weighed in today, 1.5 pounds down! Really close 10 down now!

Tonight might be hard for me since we just got a package from relatives in New Jersey. There are goodies in there...like crumb cake, chocolate marzipan, etc... I guess I'll just have to remember that chair! :)

Hope your week is going well!